John Park

Everyone is busy with their lives, and people give me a weird look when they see me at sunnybank.

how about changing my name so that I don’t turn back when i hear my name called.

Anyway Life goes on.

a song that brings memories back to me, it was cold, and windy like today. miss the day so much.

To remember the day, and you.

Am I losing weight?? no way.. Hi mom. This is how I look now.

Meeting friends that I have known for a long time always makes me think how fast time has gone.

And this bring all the memories back.

Looking back, how we were..how much we have changed, all the laughters and good times we had together.

On the way back from the airport after sending some friends of mine, I did really miss that time back then.

If I could turn back time, back to when I was real and real JP.

멋지게 웃고 있는 얼굴 뒤에 더러운 욕심. 그 마음이 그냥 그렇게 화려하고 아름다운 거짓이 가득담긴 웃음뒤에  

가려저버리는게 난 그게 너무 참을수가 없어.

알고 있을까. 그 웃음이 거짓과 욕심이었다는걸 넌 알고 있을까

In the end, 넌 거짓이란걸 알까. 네가 부르는 그 노래가 네겐 순간의 위로일뿐 진실이 아니라는걸.

구원의 손길이 널 외면하지 않길..

Time goes so slowly, and that makes me look back.

Sigh.. tired of counting days and days..

Once I start to run , we will be on the seperate ways. So don’t look back. I’m on my way.

 답답한데 괜히 누나가 보고 싶네.. 친한듯 별로 안친해서 그런걸까..

 날씨는 쌀쌀해지고… 가슴은 어딘지 모르게 한구석이 아프고 답답하고..

 사는게 사는것 같지 않지만

 언젠가 웃고 또 사랑하고 노래하고 춤을추고.. 그럴때가 있겠지..

 나 돌아갈래..

Many days that I thought wouldn’t really matter or count have gone by.

In a few weeks time, It will have been a year since I came back, from Today, I’m 1 year older than yesterday.

Many days of fun, worries, excitement, frustration, hope, and disappointment for the past 1 year.

Another chapter of my life has begun.

As years go by, for some reason, I feel more pressure on me. Pressure that I can’t really figure out what it is, where it came from.

Looking back, I can see that I have changed a lot. Now I don’t really care many things that I used to care a lot. I have lost passion about many things that I used to be so passionate. I do talk much more than I used to for no reason. Somehow I miss myself in the past who knew what is important, was thankful and grateful for small things.

Happy B’day to me.  Hi mom.  

Hi all.

I’ve been doing well in korea, except for getting sick.. wow I didn’t know that korea is cold like now.

take care and see u soon.

Going back to korea in 2 weeks time. 

Somehow I miss korea so much… For sure after staying 2-3 weeks in korea, I will miss here again though.

Have to get quite a few things done for work, for c4k before flying back.  Also I have made a list of food I want to eat in korea, and trying hard to exercise more here so that I can eat peacefully without worrying too much. Plan to meet friends, my sister, parents, and plan to plan for the next year.

I’ve just realised that My chemical romance is coming to Brisbane for a concert this week!… sigh too late.

planning to sell some of my guitar pedals to try other ones and also to give different flavours to my tone. or to buy PS3. But most likely, I won’t buy PS3 until Sony drops the price down. We are all addicted!  have to fix my amp, too.

We saw the baby Alicia Ng for the first time! wow she is so small and cute cute. I carried her for a while and she seemed to like me! As I handed her over to Jos, she started crying. Ambrose asked me to be a full time nanny. Actually I don’t mind. Sorry Alicia for forgetting to bring kimchi milk! the korean uncle John is very forgetful.  

A couple of friends of mine had b’days. It was my pleasure to spend that moment of their lives together, seeing them happy. They have shared how God has carried them through good times and bad times with many of us, and I’m truly privileged to be a part of their lives. How could we imagine lives without friends and family.. Thank God for putting them in my life to bless me. 

But a friend of mine has been complaining about me leaving 2 days earlier than his b’day. and I said I thought his b’day was 10th of Dec. I could see his disappointment. In fact, his b’day is 13th. Please forgive me. But i will come back before my b’day!

A few guys in LG went to grab some milk tea in the city. We tried ‘Easy way’. Geez, we got ripped off by the taiwanese easy way! worst milk tea I’ve ever tried. we should have gone to sunnybank. 

Last thing, I realised again that I’m a shy guy. and Chris , you are shy too!