John Park

After the Storm has gone, and the rain has watered me, things started to appear more clearly.
I could see what I have done, and what I have lost, what I should have done, and what I shouldn’t have done.

I thank God that I’m still alive after the long storm.

IF another one comes to my path again, i shall be standing upon the rock.MY Lord.and.Saviour.

Am I losing weight?? no way.. Hi mom. This is how I look now.

Meeting friends that I have known for a long time always makes me think how fast time has gone.

And this bring all the memories back.

Looking back, how we were..how much we have changed, all the laughters and good times we had together.

On the way back from the airport after sending some friends of mine, I did really miss that time back then.

If I could turn back time, back to when I was real and real JP.

Many days that I thought wouldn’t really matter or count have gone by.

In a few weeks time, It will have been a year since I came back, from Today, I’m 1 year older than yesterday.

Many days of fun, worries, excitement, frustration, hope, and disappointment for the past 1 year.

Another chapter of my life has begun.

As years go by, for some reason, I feel more pressure on me. Pressure that I can’t really figure out what it is, where it came from.

Looking back, I can see that I have changed a lot. Now I don’t really care many things that I used to care a lot. I have lost passion about many things that I used to be so passionate. I do talk much more than I used to for no reason. Somehow I miss myself in the past who knew what is important, was thankful and grateful for small things.

Happy B’day to me.  Hi mom.  

Hi all.

I’ve been doing well in korea, except for getting sick.. wow I didn’t know that korea is cold like now.

take care and see u soon.

Going back to korea in 2 weeks time. 

Somehow I miss korea so much… For sure after staying 2-3 weeks in korea, I will miss here again though.

Have to get quite a few things done for work, for c4k before flying back.  Also I have made a list of food I want to eat in korea, and trying hard to exercise more here so that I can eat peacefully without worrying too much. Plan to meet friends, my sister, parents, and plan to plan for the next year.

I’ve just realised that My chemical romance is coming to Brisbane for a concert this week!… sigh too late.

planning to sell some of my guitar pedals to try other ones and also to give different flavours to my tone. or to buy PS3. But most likely, I won’t buy PS3 until Sony drops the price down. We are all addicted!  have to fix my amp, too.

We saw the baby Alicia Ng for the first time! wow she is so small and cute cute. I carried her for a while and she seemed to like me! As I handed her over to Jos, she started crying. Ambrose asked me to be a full time nanny. Actually I don’t mind. Sorry Alicia for forgetting to bring kimchi milk! the korean uncle John is very forgetful.  

A couple of friends of mine had b’days. It was my pleasure to spend that moment of their lives together, seeing them happy. They have shared how God has carried them through good times and bad times with many of us, and I’m truly privileged to be a part of their lives. How could we imagine lives without friends and family.. Thank God for putting them in my life to bless me. 

But a friend of mine has been complaining about me leaving 2 days earlier than his b’day. and I said I thought his b’day was 10th of Dec. I could see his disappointment. In fact, his b’day is 13th. Please forgive me. But i will come back before my b’day!

A few guys in LG went to grab some milk tea in the city. We tried ‘Easy way’. Geez, we got ripped off by the taiwanese easy way! worst milk tea I’ve ever tried. we should have gone to sunnybank. 

Last thing, I realised again that I’m a shy guy. and Chris , you are shy too!

So many decisions to be made.

Raining a lot unusually in November here. Many friends of mine are suffering from exams. and some of them got sick. I also used to get sick when it was exam period. I still remember Chris took me about for $10 steak to feed me while I was sick and studying for the final exams.

Taking exams is pretty much like a decision-making game. We have to decide the best or the correct answer for each question. I remember failing  the very last paper, and I was not able to graduate and apply for PR, either. It is quite a long stroy , but God really brought me through the situation and answered my prayers. It is quite ashame of myself to share this, but I still thank God for his mercy on me back then. The subject was called “Artificial Intelligence in Programming” or something like that. How could I program something intelligent artificially when I’m not that naturally intelligent! I hope my children won’t read this oneday.

When I’m standing Before so many decisions, I used to make decisions based on my own situations, or emotions.  and many times, those decisions were quite regretful. Knowing that the ideal decision making process would be “What Would Jesus Do?, I often can’t see the whole picture and rush into the final decision. God has been teaching me to be patient in many situations, yet I’m still quite impatient. and My shepherd has been trying to test my patience level like this ”Hey John, I got something to tell you…hmmm but I think I will tell you tonight or next week.” Boy you should know that you are shortening my life span.

Like many friends of mine going through exams, I also face many questions. It seems like standing at the crossroad without clear signs, still have to decide which way to go.  Not every road seems to be the best way to go. Yet I believe that as long as I choose to put my trust in God, He will lead me, and bring me through. and that’s how God has led me this far. Even though there was up and down, yet he has been truly faithful to me. 

A few more days to go, Pray that all my friends will testify How God helps them through this tiring exam period. In fact, they will miss those times one day like I do now   Well, exam never ends, Life is an exam itself. ;) Wish you all the best. We all can enjoy playing PS3 together after exams!

p.s Say Hi to the baby Ng. Her parents names are Ambrose and Geraldine. we’re going to check out that new hot chick tomorrow! Korean Uncle John is going to bring some kimchi for you!

my all time favourite song in Nov.

No more moisturizer… Hi mom, I’m going back soon!

When David was about to kick the ball, strong wind blowing to him just turned to the other way.

51 yard goal. He made it like a movie, and they won the state championship.

After watching all these things that happened in this movie called “Facing the Giants”,  I could have said that well, this is “a movie”.

Quite true, many things happened in the movie could seem a bit unrealistic in a sense. People might call it “coincidence, or luck” .  But this is God we believe in, God of wonders and miracles.

In the movie, the people are the same ordinary people like us, going through struggles, challenges, getting frustrated. But what really inspired me was that they choose to do their best regardless their situation, and leave the rest up to God. Simpl principal, yet not an easy one to put into practice.

And If they win, they will praise God, and if they lose, they will still praise God.This movie tells me that our faith in God should be the faith that never falls regardless our situations. 

Well, whether I like it or not, I have to face many giants. At least to me, life itself seems like full of giants that challenge me a lot.Are you also facing the giants like I am everyday? The game that I’m in is not an easy one. But I want to choose to prepare the field for God to rain on it. My field might not be the best one around, yet that is what God has given to me and  I don’t want to walk off the field having done any less than my best.  Miracles can happen when we believe.  So I want to believe that With God, nothng is impossible.

while I was surfing youtube to find some music, I ended up my old school day songs!

when i was watching them, wow those songs actually brought all the memories back together. Some songs reminded me of my school holidays in jr high back. Some other songs reminded me of my high school sweet heart, too! haha .I can still remember and sing songs that my friends and I sang together. A song is like a photo that tells me stories.

S.E.S -All my high school friends’ sweet heart!  and one of these three girls is one of my best friends’ favourite too! he should see this although he is in China for holidays!