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What a great practice we had tonight.
raining raining raining…still raining a lot.
I have a privilege of being a guitarist for the healing conference coming up this Friday, and we had a practice tonight at Torchie’s place.I had a really good time playing with all the best musicians and catching up with one another.
Even though Chris broke G string again, I really enjoyed playing together with him again (Last time we played together was long long time ago!)Also with Lamuel, Ricky, Chia yen led by Torchie, Kelvin and Chris. When Torchie shared with us about some plans we have as a part of the Worship and Art Media (http://www.theworshiphub.com), I was just amazed and so grateful by how God brought me back here and even allowed me to be a part of this team again. I just thank God that God still wants to use this small gift in me for Him.Even though I gave up being a guitarist in Korea, or being a rock star, God doesn’t really give up what He has laid in my heart. But I sensed tonight that God wants me to learn how to humble myself.
When Chris said” no super star here in our team” to me, although the way he spoke to me was kinda joking, it got me to see and check my heart before God. There was a time when I used to play pretty much every week or at least quite more often than other musicians in church, I sometimes took it for granted to be a part of the team. Started to look at my skills, sound, how I play, what I play stuff like that. There was also a time when I gave up being a musician in Korea, sort of regretted that I picked up a guitar, didn’t want to play it anymore, sold my guitars and literally did not play for a long time.Through it all, I thank God for not giving me up even though I gave up playing. I struggled a bit to pick up my guitar again after coming back to Brisbane. When I shared this with some friends, they really encouraged me a lot, saying that God is able to make you even better than before.
Now I’ve been playing pretty much every week for either care group or church. Yes I’m back. haha. Hey guys, I’m not here to be a rock star or something. And let me tell you that being a guitarist in the house of God is better than being one out there. I just want to really humble myself to be able to be used by God and want to see that whatever I do on stage gives praise to the Father, not to me. It is God who has given me this gift and I just give it back to Him. He is the super star. I’m just another guitarist, who is slightly better than a guy who broke G string tonight. 
My teenage rock stars!!
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The other night, my friend in the band called me with a surprise that we got a recording contract with one of the biggest music label in Korea.As far as I remember, I was so excited on that night that I even couldn’t sleep properly. When I was 18, I thought I would be a rock star in Korea by 25. You may laugh, but the 18 year old boy was really serious and passionate about music. And the dream was about to come to pass.
That was why I went back to Korea. While doing the band in Korea, so many things happened. Good things and bad things. I saw myself come closer to the dream, at the same time saw myself compromise and walk away from God. Every night I kept thinking over and over again, what if I quit or what if I just let it go like this… I came to the point where I really had to make up my mind before it would be too late or before I would go too far where I can’t really turn back.
After 2 years in Brisbane and 6 months in Korea, I ended my journey with the band and that was my last time to see my band mates, too. Losing my friends, giving up what I really want weren’t easy to go through, and I knew that it would take a while to get over it.
We used to practice and record songs in the Korean church on Ann Street in the city. And now I pass by this place everyday on my way back home from work. It reminds me of so many things. Every time we recorded songs, we stayed there until very late. I really enjoyed what I was doing in the band. I still missed those times when we wrote songs together, jammed and recorded there. All the good times we had in the band became an old photo in my memory.
A couple of weeks ago, I became a member of our church again. It was quite interesting, some good friends of mine laughed, taking photos of me and a booklet with my name written on it. Well. I was amazed by how God brought me this far, and It actually got me to think about many questions like why I left Brisbane and the church, why I came back , all those questions. Anyway I’m back and gotta move on.
Last song we wrote together- Luvh
